I was lost. I grew up in a religious home but I never truly knew Jesus. Early in my preteen years, my family started to fall apart. I went from the perfect house, happy family to two homes, and lots of heartbreak. I walked through life alone, at least I thought I did.
I grew up going to a Catholic school and attending mass twice a week. I won’t lie, Church felt like a chore. I attended Church because that is what I was supposed to do. I never read the bible, I never really prayed, and I don’t even think I really talked about Him much. I did of course go to a few youth groups but they never really stuck with me. Towards the end of my middle school career, my family went a little crazy. My parents split up, and lots of other things that I won’t get into. The point is, I went from a seemingly perfect home to a far from a perfect one. So, starting high school I was not in the best place. I started partying, lying to my parents, and all the while I was pushing away any thought of God. I truly thought this is what life was but I was miserable. I dug myself into a pit. I started going through the motions of life. I needed a wake-up call and I definitely got one. One day my life blew up. I was forced to look at my life and I realized I was doing it all wrong. I looked up for the first time in a long time and prayed. I asked God to show me what path He truly intended for me. I didn’t turn my life around right away, I still struggled. Even with that, God started putting blessing, after blessing in my life. I saw so many prayers answered and I finally stopped trying to live for myself. I gave it all to God. I have truly found peace in God. I think the most amazing thing is that even when I was running away from Him, He was running beside me waiting for the moment I would stop so He could grab my hand and show me the way home.
I gave my life to Jesus, not only in a way that I was saved but that I decided I no longer wanted to turn away from God. God is always reaching for us. It’s just a matter of if we are gonna reach back.
